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Bye Bye Waco:)

My last final is tmrw. Then I can breatthhheeee.

Sometimes Life can get to you.

Theres so many feelings running thru me right now. I dont know if I can portray them effectively in this post but I'll try. First off, I'm worried about a lot of things. One is my family. My dad recently had a pulmonary blood clot that could have killed him in an instant, and while I'm so glad and thankful to GOD that this didnt happen I can't help but think "what if" and worry about his future health issues. It doesnt help that its the holiday season and bad food is everywhere... he's generally a healthy person but this goes to show you that GOD sometimes pulls a rabbit out of the hat in life, you never know what could happen. Idk what I'd do if I lost him. But I will stay optimistic. Another thing that has my emotions going crazy is that I really like someone right now. and everything has been fine, bout now all the sudden my mind is going into defense mode bc I'm so afraid of being hurt. I just hope I can get through this break. I'm tired of trying to explain my emotions on paper. this is impossible. I just want to lay down and think. Do some praying and just think about things.

Finals are approaching.

this week is "dead week", the week before finals when there are no classes, just free time to study. This will officially be the most boring week of my life. But its all good, no complaints bc i rather be bored than overwhelmed. And luckily I only have 3 finals since I already took my lab exam last week, and I'm not counting English bc you cant study for an in-class essay...so I should be able to study efficiently. <---college word lol
I cant wait for Christmas break..but at the same time I know once I get home I'll start getting annoyed with everything, just like I was this summer lol. Oh, did I mention that I'm pre-med again? lol according to my dad, "I'm not paying all of this money for you to NOT be a doctor." ugh. so I had to change around my whole schedule. Theres no science classes open besides one teacher, and his ratings are horrible. But THERE IS HOPE. lmao. Dec 21st is the deadline for tuition payment and on that day alotta ppl's classes get dropped bc they havent paid yet, so hopefully some slots will open up, not trying to wish that on anyone but hey, lol, gotta do what you gotta do. So unfortunately, I wont be leaving this slave ship of a degree plan. Oh well.

Lalalala.

Soooo....my car decided to die on me yesterday. good thing i wasnt driving it when it passed away lol. Ugh, good thing the break is coming up in a week and a half, idk how long i can last carless, Im not used to this shit. Some friends tried to jump it but my poor baby's battery is a goner. My dad should be up here soon (already know hes gonna get on my last nerves askin all kinds of useless questions..) but im glad i have good parents, or just a good dad lol, that would drive 2 hrs up here just see whats wrong with my car. Knowin my mom she woulda been like "you'll be alright without it" lol. I'm sittin in this dumbass biology class, obviously not paying attention..she doesnt say anything helpful.. FYI Baylor Students: if you have to take bio, DO NOT TAKE DR. RUSHING! HER HUSBAND TEACHES IT TOO AND HE'S JUST AS BAD. DONT TAKE EITHER ONE OF EM! k im done. My laptop is abt to die. i swear every device in my life is dying lol phone abt to die, car DEAD, laptop bout to die lol... now my stomach hurts. shouldnt have had peanut m&m's for breakfast huh? haha. bye.